So, I had to have my bottom 2 wisdom teeth out on Friday afternoon. I wanted to get all 4 but now I'm glad I followed the doctor's advice. My bottom two were too close to the nerves and I can't feel my bottom front teeth, bottom lip, or chin! The surgery site itself is healing pretty well, but the nerves apparently are going to take some time.
I know it's not a big deal to not be able to feel for a while, but it just really bugs me. I think I realized that its the fear that it might not come back or it might be a long time before it does that is getting to me. I know it's irrational because the doctor told me that it would come back, but it's hard to think it's true when all I can feel is...well, nothing.
Sometimes, I worry about my relationship with God that way. I know He's in my life, working, even when I can't see Him. But I wonder...when is the breakthrough coming? Will it ever come? I know it's irrational because God has ALWAYS come through for me and I have NEVER been forsaken, but it's hard to remember that when all I can see is nothing. At least nothing with my physical senses. With the eyes of faith I see that He has it all under control and that I'm in His hands, but it's really easy for that picture to fade when the "reality" is screaming at me right in front of my physical eyes.
But, I choose to trust Him about my life AND my mouth! And for now, I'll keep eating my smoothies, taking my anti-biotics, rinsing my mouth, and just doing all the things the doctor recommended, while God heals those nerves and gives me back all the feeling and makes all the swelling go away! Amen! :)
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