Happy

Yesterday, I was putting a few more pages together for a scrapbook I made for Dallas. As I looked back over the pages from this past year, I got that nostalgic feeling. So many great things have happened in my life, not just in this last year, but all along the way. This last year, I had the opportunity to have my second wedding anniversary, the Zoe fall retreat, Thanksgiving with our family in Chillicothe, MO, the college graduation of the man I love, Christmas with our family in Midland, TX, and moving to Katy, TX, for Dallas's new job. That was just the fun from September to January!

Since January, God has opened up so many doors for us and reminded me that He has a plan for me. I have been able to do things I always wanted to, but I had began to doubt would ever happen. I'm so thankful that God never forgets us. Isaiah 49:16 says that God has engraved us on the palms of His hands and that our walls are ever before him.

I'm happy--happy that God is with me, happy that I have a wonderful husband, happy that I have a purpose in my life!

5 Years with Dallas

5 years ago today, on "The Hill" (Wyandotte youth camp), Dallas asked me to be his girlfriend! Now we've almost been married 3 years and I couldn't be any happier! God brought me an amazing man who is perfect for me in every way! I am so thankful for God's hand in our lives before and since we've known each other.

Am I forgetting something?

Do you ever get that nagging feeling that you are forgetting something you need to do? I hate that feeling. Especially when I'm pretty sure that there is nothing I need to be worried about. All morning I've been on edge trying to figure out what I'm supposed to be doing. I think maybe I dreamed last night that there was something that I needed to do. Either way, I'll either think of it soon or I will remember too late to do anything about it.

In other breaking news, we are watching 2 golden retrievers for one of our friends. One is 5 yrs. old and the other is 11 weeks. Along with our cocker spaniel, Ranger, I have a little entourage of 3 that follow me around wherever I go. Other than tripping over them every time I turn around, they are actually kind of fun to have around. They remind me to relax and enjoy the chaos.

A Beginning

So, today I have been productive. I have straightened the house and mowed the yard, front and back. I would give myself a pat on the back, but these are things that I have needed to do for the last couple of days and I just kept putting them off. I don't know why I've been procrastinating so much, it's not like I'm just now getting days off after so many long months of hard work. In fact, I've had so many days without working at all, I think, maybe, I just know there really is always tomorrow to get things done.

Generally, I am the type that likes to "pay now-play later" so this trend in my behavior is a little alarming. I love to say that I am growing and learning that I can rest and be okay with who I am. That I have learned that I am good enough just as I am and I have no obligation to do things just to please others. Unfortunately, if I really look at the situation, I still feel that pull to impress; I feel the desire to do something to make me worthy of praise. Now, I'm just stuck in this unending loop of procrastination, guilt, and then, worst of all, self-righteous justification of my faulty behavior.

So, what to do? I know that I can live a life free of condemnation and guilt for past failures, but God has given me grace, not as the great cover up for sins, but as a weapon to overcome temptation everyday! I desire to live the life described in Proverbs 31:10-12, 30 "An excellent wife who can find? She is far more precious than jewels. The heart of her husband trusts in her, and he will have no lack of gain. She does him good, and not harm, all the days of her life....Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised."

I want to live a life to bring honor to God and to my husband. I've started many journeys to bettering myself with a journal entry, but this time, I am going public! Welcome to my Golden Moments.